goodbye 2K16

2016:

- a year of abundant travels, holidays and discovery
- a year of taking action before things turn to regrets (my last minute decision to join Eusoff among one of them <3 one of the best things that happened to me this year)
- a year of achievements: last sem best sem; graduation; first job;
- a year of good closures
- a year of carving the path for dreams to turn into reality
- a year of (being the last in) letting go
- a year of quiet solitude which = lots of (fairly well spent) me-time
- a year of finding peace
- Olympics
- US Elections

The Christmas-New Year vibe this year is going really strong for me. It is making me so jolly and thankful and basically I'm immersed in happy celebratory mood. (What's missing is a big fat countdown with friends/special someone overseas, which I've just added to one of my resolutions/bucket list) I'm ready to send a big farewell to 2016 because it has given me what I need it to give me and it has been such an eventful year. I'm also thankful for the later half of 2016 that allows me to begin tying up the loose ends in my life. I'm excited for 2017 because of new beginnings. Maybe it's because 2016 has been a productive year for me personally in terms of growth and finding peace. There are still quite a handful of down times here and then but I remember the good ones, always. I love fresh starts. I love new years because it is comforting to know that there is always a chance for you to start things on a clean page again.

I think I have changed throughout 2016. I still don't know if it is for the better or for worse because everything is work-in-progress. I still don't know if it is an after-effect of external factors like work and growing up. And I'm scared if my change has caused people around me to feel uncomfortable because maybe they're not used to it? My love for people whom I love and who loves me will still be the same. Change is foreign but not every foreign change is bad. Anyway I'm saying all these as I'm going through a major change haha but no, i think it's just a subtle shift in perspective for me which may be different from who I used to be. Nonetheless, I pray that the people that I love and who loves me can give me my space to grow, experiment and heal; forgive me for my lack thereof; and ultimately accept me fully when I'm ready and whenever they are ready.

2017 might be a year with increased uncertainties and risks but... I'm mostly not afraid. Maybe it's because it contains my favourite number, but I do look forward to 2K17 very much. I feel like it will be a year when I can just be. And be loved for it hopefully.

Wishing everyone a wonderful 2017 ahead and stay healthy and happy always!

With lots of love,
Peijun

love in the mooonlight 7

Lee Young: Professing your love only to make yourself at ease... is such a selfish thing to do.

Sam Nom: Is it wrong to profess for someone you cannot be with? A proper farewell is as sincere as love. Who knows if the memory of being loved... could give you strength to go on with your life? You would never understand how it feels.

Singapore can be suffocating to live in at times.

Tired of being tired of people. Sigh really could use a long getaway now.

Life's tough.

love in the moonlight

Source

strumming on my heartstrings

one of the best sundays ever

Small thing but I'm quite happy this sunday to be feeling so motivated and in control of my life and goals ever since I woke up. Actually I think it's because I was watching quite a few videos from my role model that inspired me heh.

If only weekends last for 3 days. 2 days is just enough to rest and recover but I'd like that third day very very much to continue my other pursuits.

The K2 Ep 13

Jeha: Have you ever wept out of pity before?

Yoojin: My entire life has been full of nothing but tears.

Jeha: No I don't mean out of self-pity. I mean out of pity for somebody else. I'm sure you haven't, much. Because you people are oh-so-sensitive about your own pain, whereas the pain of others means nothing to you. But you know, other people get hurt too, just like you do. And those people want to become happy, just like you people.