Another long weekend of the year

2K17Q2

Friday marks the end of my brothers' final exams and they've been back to their games all night. It tempted me to go back to playing some games myself, so I did today. I played a game I used to be so excited about. It took me a while to download it back (gosh, gone were the days when we so patiently waited for hours while waiting for a game to complete its download.)

I played it for about 30 minutes. To be honest maybe it's because it's an old game afterall and I guess the number of players dwindled like crazy. I don't know which came first but the game was exactly the same compared to a few years ago? Kinda disappointed that there wasn't much improvements... and I felt really really weird that I'm playing it, with the same old graphics.

I can still remember my skills and my strengths at the game (i'm quite pro at times teehee) but ah it feels really weird. Because I'm at this age where I'm a working adult now and it just does not sync with this same person playing the game. That girl who used to enjoy that game was at a stage in life when the most important thing in life was her studies... was her basketball competitions... was how to study well so that she can get to a JC blah blah blah.

But right now, it just hit me that it's so different. It kind of makes me feel silly for going back to this game which slapped me hard in the face that hey, I have a much much different reality now.

I think I may be having some quarter life crisis or something and I am still figuring my life out. I am at an in-between stage. Everything is neither here nor there, neither good nor bad. Just, in-between.

Sometimes you can't move forward without leaving all the past behind.

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Watched Ratatouille again with my brothers :-) One of my favourite feel-good movies.

"You must be imaginative, strong-hearted. You must try things that may not work, and you must not let anyone define your limits because of where you come from. Your only limit is your soul. What I say is true - anyone can cook… but only the fearless can be great."

"What better place to dream than in Paris?"

As random as it sounds...

Even though there are too many bizarre and terrible things that happen more and more lately in the world that it scares me sometimes...

I notice that there are also many fast-growing, quiet yet powerful communities rising to bring good to the world. I thought I was alone (or rather, the odd one out) walking this journey. But it heartens me to see that there are people who root for the things I do, who are already being what I envisioned for myself. The difference is that they are now there, in a well-deserved position to translate those ideas effectively to the world. Whereas I am here, just with thoughts in my head but not much concrete actions from my side.

There really is no better time, no "someday", no "one day". You only have today, and each day you put forward something you truly care about is another day lost in making something come true.

*update*

Holy mama... I just found out that my new favorite role model's birthday is just two days before mine.

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It makes me happy to see people grow up well. Just like how I watched you grow into this humble and kind and earnest human being who cherishes all the love received and never taking them for granted. You don't judge, you don't feel entitled and you don't feel superior to anyone. You just keep on working hard to be the best person you possibly can be and you live life the way it should be - simple yet deeply.

Even as I watched people fall out of tracks and it breaks me because I can no longer respect them as much as I did before, it's people like you that relight hopes and dreams and spread good energy around in this big big world.

Thank you for living in this world now.

“Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it.” - Steve Jobs

It doesn't matter if you are slower than the rest or you are late bloomer as long as you know what you are doing.

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Don't you worry about me 'cause I'll be fine

coldplay // a head full of dreams

I remember when I was still a ten-year-old-something, my teenage cousin (named Chris too wew) from England was playing Yellow on speakers and I casually asked him what song he was listening to. He told me it was Yellow by Coldplay, and asked if I knew them. When I said I didn't, he said "How could you not know Coldplay? It's COLDPLAY!" Hahaha and I still don't know how big of a deal they are then and I never got hooked to their songs because I didn't understand them.

BUT I UNDERSTAND IT ALL NOW COLDPLAY. I understand your songs and I understand why you have such a large following. Last night was magical, it was a sky full of stars with so much faith in humanity restored. Thank you for making me feel so hopeful for life once again, that it makes living such a grand thing that I won't take for granted. You make me a head full of dreams <3

After my virgin concert with Jay Chou, I had doubts with the venue because I'm scared of the poor sound system again. Despite this I still went ahead for Coldplay with my friends and well still can't believe we bought standing pen A tickets. It still feels like a blur that we did? I honestly try not to think too much about the exact amount of money I spent on it. Good experience will make it worth it!!

First time being in the mosh pit - despite having to get used to people blocking your views with their hands/heads/phones/cameras, standing and jumping for the 2 hours or so... plus the humid weather and close body contact... well the pluses are that you get a really close up view and you don't have to worry about forgetting lyrics because the people around you will shout along and get you back on track. I am still figuring out myself how I'd like to enjoy a concert... And while you can watch things for free online, nothing beats experiencing it yourself at that spot with the crowd and everybody who loves a band so much. I have a little regret of mine but this shall be my lesson learnt.  Nonetheless, part of me am glad that I went for it :') I may not be a full coldplay fan before this but I'm glad they turned me into one.

Some of my favourite moments (there are so many..):

• Chris Martin bouncing to the beat like a child having so much fun (!!) it's such a joy to watch somebody enjoy music as much as they did
• Chris running across the stage and ending off with an air jump (!!!)
• When he wrote a song dedicated to us right on the spot 
• When they shed light and spread awareness of everything kind 
• When Chris Martin spoke to us for that few minutes or so. No background music, just him talking to us and telling us what his heart feels.

Everything was so well put together, from the music to the visuals to the clothing to the decorations to the confetti to the colors to the lightings to the stage. And their beautiful beautiful lyrics, I'm so happy to hear elements of nature in their songs because they do mean so much to me.

Couldn't have ended this one week break I took for myself any better other than with Coldplay <3

Couldn't have ended 2017Q1 any better, thank you so much Coldplay <3