You can only have faith when there is something you're hoping for.
You must first have something you're hoping so fervently for, for you to have the faith to keep you going when the hope seems bleak.

These were my biggest takeaways from my Vesak Day, which really hit home. Everything made more sense, such as why I came across a particular quote during exchange, which became my mantra for one of the longest time. And I discovered a deeper reason now to better explain why I held on to it for so long. These were parts of my takeaways from attending a talk that Glenda invited me to. It was really insightful as I hear how people from different professions (lawyers, musicians, media people, teachers) share their work and dedication.

It really is a crucial period now.

And you know what? I decided that it was goodbye. I think I will never ever let go of anything completely, as long as it'd touched my heart before. It's just in me to forever hold on to these memories I cherish so so dearly, because letting go (which to me, is forcing myself to forget something that obviously did happen, and it only happened for me) is just letting go a part of me, that made me who I am today. It wouldn't make sense. It just doesn't sync with my life. So from today hopefully, I hope that I will not blame myself for something I can't control. This is better for me. It keeps me positive, and it makes me look forward to what other interesting things life has to offer. And it's exactly these experiences that made MY life so much more interesting.

Painful and difficult as it is. But this is goodbye. Not letting go.