Italian style

Suddenly, everything has changed.

Once again, anything can happen in a day. Miracles happen in a day. Disasters happen in a day. Someone's life can be changed in a day.

For me now, all I want to remember of last night is that we can still be friends like nothing has ever happened between us. That's how friends should be right? That no matter how badly things have become, we still, on our own, get through and face each day with no grudges held within us.

I have my own reasons to be thankful for many many things. The friends that I care so much and who've been by my side always. Friends that are not afraid of telling me what I need to hear instead of what I want to hear. And new friends who make me feel at home.

It's funny how much today contradicts with my previous posts about you. They were true thoughts and decisions but when I saw you last night I just feel like things are different. And that's how you've always been, confusing me round and round again. It could be a case of you being my illusion. It could also be a case of that's all there is - the air is clear and we forgive each other for all that had happened. And before I delve deeper into over-thinking, I want to take this moment to appreciate everything and everyone and every moment leading to this current state of mine - blissful, contented and at peace.

Y'know, change doesn't happen overnight. You won't usually know when the change began, when it starts to take shape, and when it becomes permanent. And I think i'm in that phase now. I know I'm much better now. Just not sure of officially when. And maybe last night was the confirmation that I'm truly okay with us this way. I'll be happy to see you again, like how old friends who haven't seen each other in a while do. But I wouldn't be too sad when we are apart, because we are all busy with our own lives and trying our best to cope with everything life throws at us in this decade.

I'll never know what exactly it is, but I'm thankful for you and for everything. I have learnt so much from this whole experience, good and bad. And for all the valuable lessons, I feel that I've gained so much. Learning makes me happy, because then I know that day by day, I'm inching closer towards being wiser.

Being contented and peaceful is also my one other kind of happiness.

(Anyway i just remembered an awkward moment last night - when I passed you the tissue lol)

What better way to show support, than to be there physically.