I'm gonna be away from home for almost the entire month of May. And looking at the amount of time I have remaining to catch up with my family over the times I spent in Hall... it's so sad :-( I don't remember missing my parents this much when I was on exchange, so this whole semester in hall, I really wondered over why. Is it that my mind was on a lot of other things then? Is it that after 2015 I grew closer to my family and I cherish them even more maybe that's why? I just really wished I knew better to give a bit more buffer time.
Every now and then thoughts that I am actually not very young anymore and my parents have worked so hard for not one, not two but at least three decades to bring my brothers and I up well keep creeping up. Thoughts that they are not very young too anymore and if they're not able to enjoy the sights they want to see, the places they want to explore, then when??? It should be their time now.
And for that I feel incredibly helpless that I can only help share their burden after they've raised me for twenty over years. Such hard work and dedication to be parents. Part of this motivates me even harder to do well and to reach as far as I could go, to give them the good life they deserve. So yeah, stop complaining over school PPJ.
I realised, and I am guilty of spending an exceptionally larger amount of money this year over a variety of things. I hope they are worthwhile investments that will help me to help my loved ones. I think it will. Even if it doesn't I will make it worthwhile.
Maybe I'm being a little stressed 'cause next week is gonna be the hellest of hell, and being extra paranoia but i'm just gonna touch wood and pray that nothing bad will happen while I'm not with my family. That's really the last thing I want.
If anything ever happens, whoever read this please tell my family how much I love them and that I'm very proud to be my parents' daughter. I hope they are proud of me too. My mummy for being so knowledgeable about what's good for our health and for always providing us the nutrients we need to grow well, for being so zai in Chinese that I credit my As in chinese and higher chinese to her too... My baba for doting on me the most, maybe it's a father-daughter and mother-son thing. For being behind all of us, supporting us silently with no complaints. I've never seen another guy/man who can take on hardships and problems independently as much as him. To my brothers, for always standing behind me always and tolerating this big sister no matter what.
Lastly, I'm gonna sleep soon because I am not going to spoil this body of mine that my parents painstakingly nurtured and took care of even before I was born. Like it's so stupid of me I realise... to always stay up so late doing work and probably killing so so so many brain cells and all the cognitive memory stuffs which will cost me in the long run. It's so not cherishing my own body and health, the greatest wealth we can ever have.
When I have children next time I will definitely emphasis healthy and wholesome living.
The older I get, the cuter they get.
I love you all very much 爸爸妈咪 <3
And of course my annoying brothers <3
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