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Thankful for this week of more rest.

I was down with migraine twice in the past month. And then last weekend I was literally bedridden 'cause I'm feeling too tired to do anything except to sleep and forget. During those moments of sickness it really made me feel bleak about life. I thought I was dying haha. But yeah I am fine now. It made me feel that no matter how much i'm so happy and thankful to be alive, no matter how much awesome experiences i've had... when you are sick, it's bad enough that even the most powerful memories can't bring you up. It really sucks to be sick. It really sucks when all you wish for is just to be able to live normally again, think properly, breathe properly.

It made me cherish the simplest things like being able to type this now with a clear mind (not one that is feeling dizzy and heavy and out of focus constantly). It made me cherish not being nauseous (gosh i really hate that feeling) It made me understand that even the simplest act of breathing normally, having a normal digestive system, living normally is a gift that we should not take for granted. It made me cherish how important our health is (not that i did not cherish it before but yeah... speaking of which, it's quite scary that sometimes no matter how much you care for your health, sometimes your body will break down when it has to) And really, without out health we are nothing. I truly have to take care of my health if I want to enjoy what life is all about. Health is a pre requisite. And I have so much out there still waiting for me to experience right!!!!!

During those moments I also had thoughts about what my life will look like in these two to three years. I cannot imagine myself doing what I think I have to do. I am ready to let go, yet I feel pressured by society and reality to not. My heart tells me what I am ready to do is right and I will have no regrets.

Sigh. Life.

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So that is why I'm thankful for D&D and OFE being held this week (lucky us to enter the firm during it's 75th year!). 3 day work week only and it made so much difference! Despite the MC I still didn't recover fully yet and still had to suffer a bit during work. But I have to say... OFE in the morning on thursday really lifted me up so much! The event was superbly well planned and entertaining with talented performers and hosts. Not to mention Hossan Leong, Dim Sum Dollies, an inspiring singer-songwriter who lost her voice but slowly regaining it... and the best part: STEFANIE SUN AS OUR GUEST PERFORMER!!!!!!!?????

I'm not that much of a fan but it still excites me so much because i think we all know how hard it is to see her?! Plus she's not very active lately so that makes her a very special pokemon. Plus, she did not just sing 1 song, but about 5 for us??? I really think the organising committee is super talented and powerful and I'm thankful for all they did to give us such a wonderful show. Anyway I didn't get used to her speaking english haha but she's really cute. She sang two songs that I know the lyrics to too! One of it is Wo Bu Nan Guo (which is really serendipity... my teacher used to want to teach me to sing that song and make it one of my more representative ones... So that song has some special meaning to me)

On the same day we had Dinner and Dance for our Diamond Jubilee! It's nice to glam up after a long while.

Squad and lunch buddies.

 It's quite interesting how we met during the first two days of orientation and stuck together ever since haha. I can't wait for unit trip!

What are the odds to have a dear friend entering the same firm as you and ending up in the same unit too?! :') I can't feel more blessed enough to have Beryl with me during our first month together. It made a whole lot of difference. Whatever's been said about how it's not good to have friends as colleagues, I will try my best to take care and prove that wrong!

All smiles for the first D&D with the squad 'cause I clearly mishear the instruction of "No smiles". Hahahahaha this is funny but I feel bad for spoiling the otherwise really cool photo. 

Are we badass enough?

May we be the support for each other during the upcoming tough peaks ahead!

:)

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Alright, shall end here as I have my dinner with my date on TV: Monsters University.