"And yet, to learn kindness after so much unkindness, to understand that a little girl with more courage than she knew, would find her prayers were answered, can that not be called happiness?"

"My wish for you is that you continue, continue to be who and how you are, to astonish a mean world with your acts of kindness. Continue to allow humor to lighten the burden of your tender heart." - Maya Angelou

"The problem, often not discovered until late in life, is that when you look for things in life like love, meaning, motivation, it implies they are sitting behind a tree or under a rock. The most successful people in life recognize, that in life they create their own love, they manufacture their own meaning, they generate their own motivation. For me, I am driven by two main philosophies, know more today about the world than I knew yesterday. And lessen the suffering of others. You’d be surprised how far that gets you." - Neil deGrasse Tyson

"Through the exhaustion
we can always find a way
to find the laughter."
- Tyler Knott Gregson

It’s the nature of all things to end eventually. I see that now. For as long as there’s a universe the tide will roll in and out, cities will rise and fall and stars will burn and fade away. All things have their time and we spent ours spectacularly. That’s what matters to me.
- Beau Taplin, The Nature of All Things

leave people better than you found them

there are many flawed, biased and overly emotional statements in my previous post, but i shall leave it as it is for memories' sake.

what's more important is letting go of all these thoughts and to be more realistic.
instead of letting them restrict me, let them open me up to life.

i am really thankful for a friend who's brave enough to tell me what i need to hear and snap me out of my unrealistic train of thoughts. thank you for caring, for having seen me in not the best states, and still accept and love me anyway.

*

heart strings

It is breaking my heart a little...

But I really think that... if i'm born just a few years earlier, I would have been lucky enough to avoid being caught in this in-between generation, to be able to avoid the generations that came swiftly after. The generations that grew up so westernised, that bring along with it the complications and dilution of what's truly pure and honest and simple. That destroyed .....

Not to say in the present everything is not pure/honest/simple/true etc. I believe and know it's out there, somewhere.

But honestly, I feel like I'm not meant for this generation, and I am stuck as a result.
I'm too late to be part of the older generations. Even though their examples embodied all that I now want, they showed me what truly matter. And what truly matter need not be complicated, need not require a lot of effort.
I'm also too early to fully embrace the younger generations, especially when we grew up having a taste of the older generations' way of life.

It is breaking my heart a lot actually...

Because that could have been my life.
But the time for it has passed and I can never have it ever again.
Not in this life.

*

And that, is really something that I will hold on to and I know it will be my strongest motivation and greatest gift in life. With that alone, I know I'd have led a good life. No matter what shit life brings me.

That would have changed my life so much for the better. I know I'd be a much happier, much more driven, much more courageous, much more fun-loving, much more loving person.

Now, I feel like I stopped living since I was 17.

"We are the generation of nostalgia. We grew up in the age of transition. From hand-written letters to electronic mails. From film to digital. We were fascinated by new things, neglecting the way we spend our afternoons. Cupcakes and tea. Play-Doh and Polly Pockets. Young and naive. Technology completely changed the way we waited and we grew up too fast. The simple things in life seems more meaningful now. We grew up in the age of transition and have become the generation of nostalgia."

la vita e bella

because i feel like i've been given a great gift and that is why i am so thankful.

*

only so few moments in a life time can you feel this way.
it makes every time it arrives such a life-changing special feeling.
you become extremely present in every single moment.
you find the corners of your mouth turning into smiles unknowingly.
you laugh at yourself, for thinking this would never happen but it did drop down quietly in your hands.

maybe this could just be a season.
maybe this could be here to stay.
but one thing i know for sure is it is another pivotal point in my life.
i'll grow even more from this.

<3 life.

5 - 9 May 2016 // memories are golden

Taking a moment to cherish memories, to cherish youth.

 

  

  

 

 

   

  

I hope y'all know I love y'all.