P: ... so realising this is possibly fate giving me a test and playing with me, I literally reached out in front of me and tapped him on the shoulder and said hi

A: ... You have a really big heart leh

P: Do I?

A: Yeah

getting your life together

Prioritising your rest and recharge times

"I never want to be a supporter of a culture of overworking yourself and never giving yourself a break and being the one that is not sleeping at 4am. I think it is really really important to rest and give yourself that me-time. 'Cause having your life together parallels with your relationship with your body and your soul and your mind and I believe the way to feel connected to all of that is to give yourself that time. I think always being busy and frantically running around working is actually going to make you feel the opposite - it's gonna feel like you never have anything together." - Claudia Sulewski on "7 habits that helped me get my life together"

"I tell you that story because everyone of you has something similar, I'm sure, in your history. Where you were in something you might, in retrospect, call a crisis, and somewhere along the line you found yourself "in your zone". Time disappeared. You were fully present. You were totally engaged with what was happening. You were in a productive flow. And if you had the luxury to stop for a minute, you may have then had the experience of a wonderful sense of being present."

"See, interestingly, crisis can actually produce a kind of calm that's rare to find sometimes. Why? It demands it. Because it's the calm that comes from those behaviours that create the kind of positive, productive, engaged experience that moves us into "our zone"."

Crisis evokes serenity.

Just randomly you creeped into my mind again and I checked my phone to find that you...
What happened?
For a moment I thought you disappeared into thin air again, reasons unknown because you didn't have to.

But after a while of letting what happened sink, I realised that okay, I'm just blowing things out of proportions. Many other people do the same. Personal preferences, as simple as that.

Just when I thought I am slowly letting this go, this episode just hit me in the face to remind me how much you mean to me in my life.

*Update: After a few days I realised things are back to normal and it's probably just a technical issue. lol.

I walked away, not because I stopped feeling anything.

But because I did not want to give myself the chance of doubting you or thinking negatively about some of the things you did (which I do not understand and will probably never have the chance to ask).

I've associated you with so much light, sunshine and positivity. You've brought so much positive energy into my life at a time when I didn't know I need it (but I do), and it has changed my life for the better. For that, I will always be thankful. You're one of those people who've helped to restore my faith in humanity. And I want to continue seeing you that way, I want to remember you this way.

Having doubted one or two times already caused me enough disappointment, so please allow me to remember you in that positive light, even if you turn out to be different from who I thought you were.

"Go where you are loved, not where you are needed."

Still figuring out my stance on the above sentence.

玩好就超越自己，玩不好就用力过猛。

略显浮夸 弄巧成拙

3 weeks rejuvenation

The three weeks away from Singapore, there is a growing aspiration of mine to own a beautiful home in the future. All that road trips and staring out the windows provided lots of inspiration and imagination of a beautiful life in a beautiful home.

Crossed paths with one of the rudest people I've ever met.
Regardless of who where when why how, basic manners can't get anymore basic than that.
It says a lot about you.
What a disappointment, I earnestly thought you were much better than this.

When the time comes for us to endure pain, I'd want us to remember our fond memories and find strength from them.

*

On hindsight, I spent the most precious years of my youth recovering from being broken.

When harnessed well, a woman's strength is the world's greatest strength.

More often that not, in between conversations, people make candid remarks about how I'm a "very positive" person.

It puzzled me which is also why I am quick to correct to say that I'm actually really not.

But when I'm alone again and in my quietest moment, that's when I wonder there must be some truth in there (why would more than one friend lie to me about things like that). And then it dawned on me that it's just that i myself did not realise how i've changed through the years.

It's not a natural process that I became a "positive person", especially when I think about those days when I used to be called one of the most pessimistic/over-thinkers as some would call it.

It's a bittersweet feeling?

To know that this change was so necessary for me, to breathe a tad bit easier in life.
To know that through the hustle and healing, there is progress and hard work pays off, even when throughout the journey I don't even know if I ever had high chances of succeeding.
To know that I brought myself all the way to where I am, without even realising I did.

Those seemingly few words, says a lot, thank you.