I feel like we didn't need to go down this road.

I was genuinely alright. Some days I feel like whatever has happened is part and parcel of life, and it need not be as bad as I imagined it to be. Days like these, I feel happy to be able to see the bigger picture of life, and that relationships have their ups and downs. I'm thankful for you and I'm thankful for the lessons. Deep down, I also know that time will heal our friendship and it's just a matter of time when we will be able to be friends again.

I honestly, know that we can be friends again. Even though we aren't the sweetest couple around, but I felt we can make amazing friends. (Even our horoscopes say so okay).

But I feel sad that I have my doubts now. When I pursued my own path of healing, I am still able to love you as a friend, I am able to care for you as a friend. I can even imagine myself, treating you like how I would treat my other friends, if we happen to pass by each other on the streets. It really made me feel that, "See, I really am alright. And it's okay we are like that now." And I'm glad I can even reach this stage.

But i guess this is yet another period of change. This whole process of healing has so many different sub-stages that once I'm comfortable in one, situations change and I'm challenged with yet another setting. I feel like I'm going through a life challenge and one by one i'm hopping over all these hurdles.

Haha come what may, I think I already saw the finishing line. Like what I've said previously, maybe I'm not the one who's not ready to be friends, but you. Or, it could also just be a case of one-sided friendship.