The grass is greener where you water it

I don't know what came over me with that previous post. But I guess I just want to be myself now, unfiltered.

I've been reading this blog for quite a while, and I'm surprised by how much I resonate with her. Noting some of these down for myself, because I feel exactly the same way.

• http://irinatyt.blogspot.sg/2013/03/all-that-party-shit.html
  
  There are so many other ways to have fun, but it's a pity in Singapore that's the way it is. I've experienced a different side about clubs and drinking on exchange, and I feel sad that in SG it'll never be the same. It can be a wonderful and fun experience if done right, but oh wells.
• "People change, and often like it or not, they become the person they said they will never be."
  
  And to you, I feel like, you became the person you said you'll never be.
• This feels eerily de ja vu. They were pretty much, the exact same words I said to you that day, 18 May 2014. That there are always people better out there for you. There is someone better than me for you, and also better than you for me. But here I am, completely aware of that but I'm still choosing you, I choose you. And I'm happy this way. That to myself is my own recognition of how much I love you. But dear, can't you see that love is not about finding the right one, but learning how to love the one you already have?
  
  
  
• http://irinatyt.blogspot.sg/2013/07/giving-your-all.html
  
  This. "And I will do everything it takes to not fail. And I did everything it took, but it still failed. - Katy Perry"

These are just some of it. And I'm relieved to know that there is someone out there, who feels the same as me. All the things about how people with arranged marriages turned out perfectly fine and they learnt to love each other always reminded me that it is possible.

I'm very glad that I'm not alone in this. And I'm very glad that I know it's possible. But maybe that's why it hurts a lot to know that you made it impossible. 2 hands to clap yo.

(Anyway, with regards to all these outpouring of thoughts, it may feel like all these are still raw in my heart but I promise that these are perhaps delayed outpouring of thoughts that's been within me for ages. I promise I am better now, and I'm not emo. But writing all these down made me feel much better. And lastly, without my friends, family and myself, I wouldn't have been who I am now. So I'm blessed, and bless you all!)